TEN FIRSTS:
First Best Friend: Danielle
First Screen Name: Eryn543
First pet: Fritz. Orange cat
First Piercing: ears
First Celebrity Crush: Justin Temberlake *gag*
First CD: Of my own? Backstreet boys *gag*
First Car: No idea
First True Love: Zack Weissrock
First Stuffed Animal: Teddie- brown teddie bear
First Trip: When I was about one. I moved to Kentucky
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NINE LASTS:
Last Car Ride: Just a half hour ago...lunch with my family
Last Movie Seen: Oh brother where art thow
Last Phone Call: Mom
Last CD Played: Dave Mathews Band-some devel
Last Bubble bath: two years ago
Last time you Cried: last week
Last time you talked to the person you like: Right now
Last time you took a test: Two weeks ago- mid terms
Last time you drank a cup of milk: a few days ago
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EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS:
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: Yup
Have you ever been arrested: uh...I don't know
Have you ever skinny dipped: It was so fun
Have you ever been on tv: Yeah...I'm a whore for T.V.
Have you ever kissed someone and then regreted it: Oh yeah
Have you ever gone commando: EVERY DAY



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SEVEN THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY:
Showered
dressed
got on line
talked to thomas
talked to my mom
ate food
updated on line stuff
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SIX PEOPLE YOU'RE FRIENDS WITH:
Maeghan
Emmanuel
Thomas
Sabrina
Alex
Isabel

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FIVE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING:
Black button up shirt
Black pants
socks
earings from thomas :-D
bracelate from thomas :-D
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FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO:
Emmanuel
Maeghan
Thomas
Sabrina
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THREE CHOICES
1. Hot or Cold: Hot-I love hot
2. Black or white: black
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
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TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

Be who I want to be, with no exceptions
Live every moment to its fullest
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ONE PERSON YOU LOVE:
Emmanuel. He's helped me cope with alot, without him acctually knowing it




take a moment and figure out what you want in life.

Can you see me any more?

I am here. I open my eyes and see you're turning away. Your arms are folded behind your back, and they are holding a once live rose. You drop it, and turn to me, to see my face; so I can see the blood red tears that are running down your check.

Did you have to do this? Say that you were here, when you really weren't? You've lied so many times, so I am not at all surprised that this has happened. You are made of lies, and made for lieing.

I do love you. I am here, screaming for you to come back to me, but you won't. You never have and you never will. Can you even see me? Can you? I doubt it, becuase you're once reasonable and kind eyes, are stabed out.

I took my quil pen and gabbed them out, my self. Fear is all that I could see on your face.


Don't come back. I don't want to see those empty eye sockets, any more than you want to be near me. But remember that you did this to your self.

Eryn's Disorder

Textbook example. You are suffering from
Eryn's Disorder.

Cause: cursed amulet

Symptoms: mild narcolepsy, occasional coordination problems, knee pain

Cure: eat more celery



The sleep I have been gettine, I have been falling, and my knee hurts like a bitch.
But the celery didn't help

It's ok, to use your ablility

I know that I spelled it wrong. But that strikes a cord in me somewere. It's a line in a song for the lost prophets, but still, I like it. Yeah.


Nothing to update again. No amazing wisdome and nothing to talk about. I never have anything to talk about. I could talk about alot of things, but do you all really want to know it? I doubt it.

My life is in a strange place right now. I'm happy, in a relationship with a boy that makes me happy (minds out of the gutter), getting good grades, and still STILL I have a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach. *NOTE TO SABRINA* same feeling as when I passed by a cemetary when I was younger. I think I was eleven. Yeah, someone had been shot there within the few months before I went there.

Maybe it means that another change is coming. Maybe it's a good thing, but this feeling isn't helping me with anything. I know that I am no longer depresed, but every once and a while, I look at that razor blade, and almost grab it. I havn't done anything, for many reasons, but still. I wish that the feeling would go away, and that I wouldn't be afraid that I am another mistake.

Is that normal? To think that your person, your thing, has made a mistake by dating you? I doubt that it is normal. I just want him to be happy. I want to be happy. I want happieness for everyone. Can I just give the world happiness? Oh please? fine.

no world happiness. Just happiness for us, becuase I dub everyone who reads this, a week of happy. Yes, for one week, you can use my happy. I'm just noce like that. But I will be needing it back. Razor blades are mean little buggers

Bone Dry

I have nothing left to write about. Is it possible that I've used up what it is that I love most; I have no more experiances' left. I have written them all several times, and now that I've used them, what do I have? Nothing. I'm like a car that's running on empty.

Last year I was getting not so great grades, and I was uber depressed. However, this year, I am getting great grades, and I'm really happy. I am Bull shitting all of my papers, and every time I try to write something, it comes out as crap.

I just got into a fight with my mom over a paper that I wrote. "And to be honest, I don't think that you tryed. This isn't like anything in the past. You didn't try" And the truth is, that I didn't try.

I don't want to write. I no longer look forward to writing and I no longer take pride in what I do. I've been thinking this for a while, and hopping that it was wrong, but my mom just showed me that I'm not the only one that can see it.

And although she said it in one of the nastiest ways she could have, she was still right. I am still not any better than I ever have been. I've never been all that great, but I guess that when I started AP english, I just noticed it a little more.





I just want to cry, becuase I am not good at the one thing that I thought I was