An Updated Life

All I can hope for, is love. I always want more and I always want it to be as good or better than the last. All I could ever want, would be a more powerful love, that lasted. Crazy thoughts, I know, but somewhere inside me, I feel alone. I feel like the world closes and opens before me, but I'm afraid to walk in during the right moments.

Only now, do I see what I've done wrong in the past. Only now, do I know what I could have done to make things work. Sucks that it takes a broken heart or a damaged phyci to get here.

So, what I want is an updated life. I want a new love, I want a new me (with the same qualities, just some added), and I want a new place. I'm sick of Louisville. Not because of it's people or because of it being Louisville. I am sick of being here. I want to expand my horizons and I want to be able to read a god damned book that has some sort of meaning to it.

I'm just sick of me

Just sleeping won't cover it

I say i'm sorry to all of those who have been affected by all the chaos of November 8/9, 2006. I have to say that no one can understand anything that happend, even if they were the one's going through it.






I talked to Thomas today. I asked him how he was after the news of Dillan came out. He didn't answer. He only stared at me, as if he wanted to say something, but didn't have the words. All life has those moments.



Life just needs to stop being so hard.

I'm short a co-worker and somehow, somewhere inside of me, i feel like i'm missing someone else.

can someone explain this to me?






I'm starting to move on...I can feel it. My poetry is getting better, and I'm not obsessing myself with what he thinks. I feel I'm improving; unlike my math grade. I'm ready for it to get cold outside, because the sooner that happens, the more likely I am to finde and fall in love with someone. It just suckes that school is during one of my least favorite times of the year.

It's to fucking cold out.

fuck.