It's ok, to use your ablility

I know that I spelled it wrong. But that strikes a cord in me somewere. It's a line in a song for the lost prophets, but still, I like it. Yeah.


Nothing to update again. No amazing wisdome and nothing to talk about. I never have anything to talk about. I could talk about alot of things, but do you all really want to know it? I doubt it.

My life is in a strange place right now. I'm happy, in a relationship with a boy that makes me happy (minds out of the gutter), getting good grades, and still STILL I have a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach. *NOTE TO SABRINA* same feeling as when I passed by a cemetary when I was younger. I think I was eleven. Yeah, someone had been shot there within the few months before I went there.

Maybe it means that another change is coming. Maybe it's a good thing, but this feeling isn't helping me with anything. I know that I am no longer depresed, but every once and a while, I look at that razor blade, and almost grab it. I havn't done anything, for many reasons, but still. I wish that the feeling would go away, and that I wouldn't be afraid that I am another mistake.

Is that normal? To think that your person, your thing, has made a mistake by dating you? I doubt that it is normal. I just want him to be happy. I want to be happy. I want happieness for everyone. Can I just give the world happiness? Oh please? fine.

no world happiness. Just happiness for us, becuase I dub everyone who reads this, a week of happy. Yes, for one week, you can use my happy. I'm just noce like that. But I will be needing it back. Razor blades are mean little buggers