A world without flowers

I picked this flower for you
I hope you like it.

I was thinking of you
When I saw the color.

The way it danced in the wind
The way it stood for a bee
Made me realize how much this flower means.

I picked this flower for you.
I know you'll love it.

A world without flowers,
Is a world without beauty.











School sucks sometimes. I am becoming really annoied with Hemoseth and I don't appresiate students who think they have a right to be horrible.

Some girls in my womens history class want to "have a baby". It's that dumb ass asignment where you prentend a sack of flower is your baby....stupid! I don't want to have a baby; real or unreal. I say rar to that non-sence.



...No more wire hangers!!!

I've heard it said that once you live in a place long enough and do the same things over and over again, that there is nothing left to do and that there are no conversations worth having. I think that's untrue. I feel that if you put your self into that position, that it is true, but I don't think that is compleatly true.

I have a pattern. I know, because I too went through this just the other day, but I do not have the same conversations everyday. I do not feel the same way every day; and to that person, if they read this, You are the same as you always have been, Just suck it up and learn to live where you are. Make the most of your surroundings, because they aren't changing...not for a while at least. Suck it up and learn that no matter where you go, your friends will love you and I will be waiting for you.

Just learn to make everyday count.

"my heart...It beats for you"

If feels as if my heart is being held down by concrete. every day that passes is hard, but I know that I have to get past this to make it to a better place. I lose my breath when I see the faces of forgoten times and I sometimes forget how to smile when I think of things that should have been lost in my memories.

They say the things that do not kill you, make you stronger. I have to say that I disagree with that statment...or part of it. I don't think that all things make us stronger...some make us bitter and others angry; some of them break us and others mend our bodies.

My heart has been broken, shaterd even, but I still wake up in the morning, because I know that there is a light on the other side of this dark tunnle and I also know that a lover in my life showed that to me. He told me it was ok to fall, becuase I would have the strength to get back up. because of him, I realize my strength. I know I am strong and I know that if enough time passes, I can forget the pain I've suffered and focus on possible loves and re-loves.

To him, I want to say thank you, but that is the one thing I can not bring myself to do. I can not look him in the eye long enough to say this. So I have a task. If any of you can tell something to me that you've been dieing to, but havn't been able to bring yourself to, then, I will tell him myself. If not, I'll leave it up to fate.

The time is now to prove your strength.

A not so lengthy, Lengthy artist list

-...And you will know us by the trail of the dead (Worlds Apart)
-Aberdeen City (The Freezing Atlantic)
-Aquabats
-Aqualung (Strange & Beautiful)
-Arctic Monkeys (Whatever people say I am, that's what I'm not)
-The Beatles
-Blink 182
-Bonnie Somerville
-Cary Brothers
-The Centurians
-Citizen Cope (The Clarence Geenwood Recordings)
-Cold Play (A Rush of Blood to the Head; Parachutes)
-Collin Hay
-Death Cab For Cutie (Plans; The Photo Album; Tramsatlanticism)
-Devo
-Dusty Springfield
-The Faint (Blank Wave Arcade; Danse Macabre; Wet From Birth)
-Fatboy Slim (You've come a long way baby)
-Feist (Let It Die)
-The Flaming Lips (Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots)
-Flogging Molly (Swagger)
-Franz Ferdinand (Franz Ferdinand)
-Gloria Gaynor
-Gomez
-Gorillaz (Demon Days)
-Haddaway
-Hot Action Cop
-Iron & Wine
-Jimmy's Chicken Shack
-John Mayer (Hevier Things)
-Kool & The Gang
-Maria McKee
-Modest Mouse
-My Morning Jacket (Z)
-Neutral Milk Hotel (In The Aeroplane Over The Sea)
-Nick Drake
-No Doubt (Rock Steady)
-Ok go (oh no)
-The Pine Club (God Bless The Pine Club; Last Frame; The Pine Club)
-The Postal Service (Give Up)
-Queen
-Red Hot Chili Peppers (Californication)
-Remy Zero
-The Shins
-Simon & Garfunkel
-The Stonecutters (The Stonecutters)
-We Are Scientists (With Love and Squaler)
-Weezer (Weezer)
-The White Stripes (Elephant; Get Behinde Me Satan)
-Yeah Yeah Yeahs (Fever To Tell)
-Zero 7 (The Garden; When It Falls; Zero 7 EP; Chiled Ibiza 2000)


These are some of the people that I listen to. Have fun. the () are the Albums that I have.

I don't know what to think

I was walking to seventh period when I saw Thomas' hands on Isabels hips. He was pulling her closer and she was touching his shoulder. I'm not sure that it means anything; if anything, but I felt really upset and hurt.

I don't know what to think.

Any suggestions.....?

eryn