A big "FUCK YOU" to the man in red

Have you ever had a dream that you can remember perfectly until you go to tell someone; and at that point, it just faids so quickly, you wonder if it had ever really happend? That's what I am currently suffering from.

I awoke this morning to find only blackness. Not dark, becuause all I could see was black. It was early. I remembered my nightmare almost as if it's happend before. I have a feeling my dreams are returning, but that's not the point of my story. So, I went back to sleep, hoping to let the terror slide off of me. To ease the pain of sleep and life.

I think that people are forever stuck in a world in between sleep and life. That dazed feeling that we get once we wake up, never really goes away. My idea is that insomniacs are the only ones that are any where near to being awake, even though, they never really are. Just like in fight club. He just existed. Never asleep, never awake.

So, I woke up from my nightmare. It was of a man. I remembered his face compeatly and totaly, but now, it's not there. I'm not sure if I was ever correct in my ways of "seeing" him, but now, I'm positive I don't know him. However, there was a since of familiarity in him.

I went to sleep in hope of finding him; I didn't. I only found a lake, where I was snoopy/myself and I got to ride a jet skee. Mighty fun might I say, but the ocean was bigger when I had to sweem across it, than it was when I got to use the jet skee.

Then I woke; again. I remembered this one, and knew that whome ever it was I was looking for, wasn't there.


I'm sleeping and getting dreams that are all telling me something, but the things that they are telling me are being lost in trannslation, and I'm not getting the message. I want to know this man in the red coat. I want to see his face and know his story.

Sleep is the loneliest thing anyone will ever go through. we are isolated, and forced to look into ourselves, so we can find out how boring we are.

(001) Your Name: Eryn Michelle French
(002) Your Gender: girl
(003) Single: Helss no
(004) Want to be: No...Sinle sucks
(005) Your birth day: May 28, 1990
(006) Age you wish you were: 24
(009) The color of your eyes: hazel
(010) Piercings: EARS
(012) Tattoos: I want them so hard core

DO YOU...

(013) Smoke: depends...no ciggerets
(014) Do drugs: not for a really long time
(015) Read the newspaper: sometimes
(017) Talk to strangers who IM you: Ehh..if someone I know knows them
(018) Take walks in the rain: I like rain
(019) Drive: Sometimes
(020) Like to drive fast: Fast is bad
(021) Hurt yourself: Intntinolly/not intentionly

HAVE YOU EVER...

(022) Been out of the country: Mexico
(023) Been in love: yes
(024) Done drugs: yes
(025) Gone skinny dipping: yes
(026) Had a surgery: doctors tore into my foot
(027) Ran away from home: once or twice
(028) Played strip poker: Yes
(029) Gotten beaten up: yes
(030) Been picked on: yes
(031) Been on stage: yes
(032) Slept outdoors: all the time
(033) Cried yourself to sleep: quite often
(034) Pulled an all-nighter: yes...insomnia is a bitch
(036) Talked on the phone all night: no
(038) Slept all day: nope
(039) Killed someone: I think not
(040) Made out with a stranger: uhh....
(041) Had sex with a stranger: uh...
(042) Kissed the same sex: I like the ladies
(044) Been betrayed: yes
(045) Broken the law: YES
(046) Met a famous person: kinda
(047) Been on the radio/TV: Yes
(048) Been in a mosh pit: Once or twice
(049) Had a nervous breakdown: all of the withing the last few years
(050) Been criticized about your sexual performance: kinda
(051) Had a dream that kept coming back: more than once

A COUPLE RANDOMS...

(052) Shoe brand: chucks
(053) School: atherton
(054) Wear hats: beanies
(055) Judged other people by their clothing: I have
(056) Wear makeup: sometimes....when I feel like it
(057) Favorite place to shop: thrift shops and ventage shops
(058) Favorite article of clothing: I think I like shirts
(059) Are you trendy: I don't know

BELIEFS...

(060) Believe in life on other planets: There has to be
(061) Miracles: Not spicifically
(062) Astrology: I do..most times
(063) Magic: magic is everywhere
(064) God: not only god *wiccan*
(066) Santa: used to
(067) Ghosts: yes
(068) Birth: yes
(069) Love at first sight: yes
(070) Yin and yang: yes
(071) Witches: yes
(072) Easter bunny: no

LOVE

(077) Do you remember your first love: yes
(078) Still love him/her: no
(079) Do you consider love a mistake: never a mistake
(080) What do you find romantic: sweetness
(081) Turn-ons: sweetness, kissing, rubbing, wispers, so on and so forth
(082) Turn-off: bad teeth, smelliness
(083) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: no
(085) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: yes....many a time
(086) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking: Sometimes
(087) What is best about the opposite sex: No idea
(088) What's the last present someone gave you: a bracelet
(089) Do you like someone at this moment: I love someone at this moment

LAST PERSON...

(090) That you laughed at: Maeghan
(091) That laughed at you: Maeghan
(092) That turned you on: Thomas (hoe bag)
(093) You went shopping with: my mother....i think
(094) To disappoint you: sabrina
(096) To make you cry: my mother
(097) To brighten up your day: Maeghan
(099) You saw a movie with: Maeghan and Thomas
(100) You talked to on the phone: mommy
(101) You talked to through IM: amanda
(102) Your 4 friends: maeghan, sabrina, thomas, emmanuel

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...

(104) Smiled: I'm smiling
(105) Laughed: earlier
(106) Cried: afew days ago
(107) Bought something: afew days ago *food*
(108) Danced: afew days ago
(109) Were sarcastic: afew hours ago
(110) Hugged/kissed someone: today
(111) Talked to an ex: couple of weeks ago
(112) Watched your favorite movie: so long ago
(113) Talked on the phone: two hours ago *mommy*
(114) Listened to the radio: afew days ago
(115) Watched TV: right now
(116) Went out: yesturday
(117) Helped someone: afew days ago
(119) Said "I love you" and meant it: two days ago
(120) Did something with someone you didnt want to do: a while ago