"my heart...It beats for you"

If feels as if my heart is being held down by concrete. every day that passes is hard, but I know that I have to get past this to make it to a better place. I lose my breath when I see the faces of forgoten times and I sometimes forget how to smile when I think of things that should have been lost in my memories.

They say the things that do not kill you, make you stronger. I have to say that I disagree with that statment...or part of it. I don't think that all things make us stronger...some make us bitter and others angry; some of them break us and others mend our bodies.

My heart has been broken, shaterd even, but I still wake up in the morning, because I know that there is a light on the other side of this dark tunnle and I also know that a lover in my life showed that to me. He told me it was ok to fall, becuase I would have the strength to get back up. because of him, I realize my strength. I know I am strong and I know that if enough time passes, I can forget the pain I've suffered and focus on possible loves and re-loves.

To him, I want to say thank you, but that is the one thing I can not bring myself to do. I can not look him in the eye long enough to say this. So I have a task. If any of you can tell something to me that you've been dieing to, but havn't been able to bring yourself to, then, I will tell him myself. If not, I'll leave it up to fate.

The time is now to prove your strength.