i am sitting in the kitchen at maeghans house, when it hits me.

CRANBERRIES LYRICS

"Ridiculous Thoughts"

Twister, oh, does anyone see through you?
You're a twister, oh, an animal.
But you're so happy, now. I didn't go along with you,
So happy now, na na na na.

But you're gonna have to hold on. You're gonna have to hold on,
You're gonna have to hold on, hold on, hold on.

Or we're gonna have to move on, We're gonna have to move on,
Or we're gonna have to move on, move on, move on.

I feel alright and I cried so hard, The ridiculous thoughts, oh.
I feel alright, alright, alright, alright.

Twister, oh, I shouldn't have trusted in you.
Twister, oh, a na na na. It's not gonna happen, no.
You're not gonna make fun of me,
Happen now, na na na na.

But you're gonna have to hold on. You're gonna have to hold on,
You're gonna have to hold on, hold on, hold on.

Or we're gonna have to move on, We're gonna have to move on,
Or we're gonna have to move on, move on, move on.

I feel alright and I cried so hard, The ridiculous thoughts, oh.
I feel alright, alright, alright... Ah, I should have lied,
But I cried so hard, The ridiculous thoughts, ah.
I should have lied, have lied, have lied, have lied.
But you're gonna have to hold on.

You're gonna have to hold on, [X 7]
Well, you're gonna have to hold on. You're gonna have to hold on,
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold.
Well, you're gonna have to hold on,
You're gonna have to hold on,
To me...







how i love the cranberries. i grew up listening to them, and i had the cd "no need to argue" until early 6th grade, when my mother and i lost it. i have missed them, and since my WNMIX is not working, i havn't been able t listen to them. so maeghan started to download it, and i came across this song. it made me feel like all of this is total bull shit. i am sick of being attacked every time i state my opinion. and apparently, i blow up with no warning and no one can tell what will make me mad.

so, i am sick of it. i told issy, and aimee what was going on, and it was if a war went off. now i am sick and tired of feeling like i a m not good enough for krome, and i am sick of feeling like i have disgusted aimee, but i can't help but miss them. yeah, i get mad and i still am, but i do miss them.

shit happens. i get mad, people dont tell others what is going on, and shit gets started. nothing to be stopped. it's just that we all contribute to it, and we look for people to blame, so that our conscience is free. I do it too, but i do admit to some of it. not to say that no one else does.




I was reading alot of myspaces with maeghan and all of this came on to me. people being mad at other people, because of how they act, and not because of what they do. it is mind boggiling. we all do it. not our "group" (even though that is long gone), but rather, all of the people in the U.S.. we all do it, and we all look for a way ut, whether or not that means we bring somone down.

so iam finnished. i'm not going to deal with the bull shit anymore. I'll be your friend, but one the shit starts to happen, i'm out. and i know that makes me a bad friend, but i think it is time that you all deal with your own shit without me. you say you are old enough to handle yourslef AND make your own dessions....well, prove it. I have. your turn.