my personal life is dieing

Thomas and I almost broke up. It was really intencs and if you want to know more about it you have to talk to me about it, but just know it happend. It made me realize just how much of a life I don't have.

This summer, has pretty much been Thomas, Michigan, YAI and Will be band camp. I don't really have friends anymore and I feel alone. I want to talk to someone and know that they are listening. Not that Thomas doesn't do that, but I talk to him like that enough and I think he needs more of his own time. I'm invading his life and I don't want to trap him.

God, I feel pathetic. Today is the one day that I have been able to lie around and not give a shit about anything. However, I still have to do my laundry and clean my room, so there's not to much to do until I have to start working again. Fuck, it never ends.